How Long Will I Remember Him??

For those of you who don't know, I lost my brother to brain cancer in November of 2008. I think about him ALL the time, and although life does go on...I will always carry a little sadness with me. I often find myself thinking of him late at night when I'm laying in bed NOT sleeping( yes, I suffer from insomnia) and sometimes I wonder...how long will I remember? Will there come a day when I can no longer recall? I hope not. But for now I figured why not write down some memories just in case. So here are just some of the things I remember about Jason...


I remember his smile


I remember his voice


I remember his laugh, and how it would get high pitched the harder he laughed


I remember how his laugh was contagious


I remember how he was always the life of the party and always kept others laughing


I remember how dedicated he was to providing a good life for his family


I remember how he loved Caleb and Tiff


I remember how he'd drop everything to help anyone, anytime


I remember how he'd "scratch" his throat with that awful noise when he ate raw fruit =)


I remember how he loved sweet tea


I remember that he loved to watch Survivor


I remember how much of a neat freak he was and how organized he kept his things


I remember the way he walked


I remember the way he hated to waste money or food and would eat the leftover's just to avoid throwing any food away =)


I remember when growing up, how he always picked on me...as all good big brothers do


I remember that he gave a 100% at everything in life


I remember that he always worked hard and never complained, even when he was fighting cancer and sicker than ever


I remember that he was the most funny, loving, hard-working, bravest man I'll ever know


 I am so afraid I will one day think back and not be able to remember something about him, but there is one thing I will NEVER forget, and that is who he was. Jason Christopher McConnell; a great husband, father, son, brother, and friend. Many people loved him, and many people miss him. That is how he lives on.